worst day?

Something which is unbelievable happened today. I cannot accept it. It was just too impossible. I actually get band 2 for my Malaysia University English Test(MUET). It's a fail. I was so heart broken, i never fail in my English before. It was like a dream,a nightmare more like it.

I was so down after knowing the result. At first i'm so anxious to know my result, hoping to get band 4 or band 5 if i'm able too but it turns out band 2, which i never even expected. My friends were in shock knowing it. They know how good is my English, i'm not boasting, seriously, at least i can get a band 3 but band 2. Heart totally broke after knowing it. Emo for the whole day, wish that there's someone i can talk too.

I was thinking of a girl and actually talk to her too. To be exact, i have been talking to her these days. Trying to make myself feel better by talking to her. However end up, i'm encouraging her because she scares that she will fail her subjects. I cheered her up and changed to another topic, i don't want her to think more about it. If you keep thinking about it, it will only make you more worry and it's pointless to think about things which are not happening yet. So ya, i talk to her, cheer her up, dont want to see her being emo or sad. After reading her blog, i actually understand how she felt and what exactly happened in her life. I wanted to tell her that i don't feel happy today because of the MUET result, i almost burst in tears knowing that i only get band 2 and it's a fail, not even near to the passing marks. However i just talk to her like nothing goes wrong. Somehow i feel better each time i see her replies a bit by bit. Each time i talk to her, i really feel better, she can actually let me laugh and focus on talking to her only. I do not think that she knows that but time by time, she will notice it somehow or maybe not. Perhaps i think too much again.

How i wish i can tell her about me but she's just a person i just met. How can i just express what happen to me today, it's just too sudden for her. Nevertheless, things will review to her after 30th January since i promised her i will give her my blogger's link. Which i only give my blogger link to only friend that i trusted. I do hope that after she read my blog, she would not change her view towards me. I have no idea how she looks at me, how does she think about me but i do know one thing that i'm happy being with her, dancing with her. 'the feeling' i have with her, it's real. I know her now but not her real personality yet. I want to know you more. If you love a person, you're able to accept his/her weakness and help her to changed it if you are able too. So, like i said, let things flow on its own.

~HPB