that smile

today,its the day where our country called the independent day; once the clock reached 12am, the place where i stayed, the blue dark sky all lighted up with colorful fireworks and noises which annoys me. Independent day, a day where everyone will stay at home and rest, a day where adults able to sleep till noon time, a day where kids unable to watch their favorite morning cartoons, a day where everyone will only think its holiday instead of independent day. Simply its means not everyone do care about today but we citizen of Malaysia still look forward the day where there is no boxes for cina, malay, india or others in any paper form, just a box which written malaysian, isn't that the best answer? whether will it happen? anyway still there is a lot of thing which we need to achieve to build this country.

enough of the independent day, what so special about today is K's birthday, that's why i remember this day. honestly speaking i never remember this day for years after since my primary school. Primary school is because they will print an announcement and ask us to bring back home to show our parents that's why i remember and after that i never remember that day until that exact day comes. Anyway, today is her birthday, she celebrated her birthday in her house if i'm not mistaken with a friend of hers who has the same day of birthday too. She looks happy in the photo, that's the smile i want to see. I do hope that she enjoy her birthday celebration with her friends, should be awesome. I don't have that kind of celebration before but on my birthday which happened this year, K actually helped me to celebrate with my dancing friends and friends that i made during the preparation of Mirage, a music drama show. A day which i will remember.

So its your birthday, i remember so clearly that early of the month you said "don't you dare to see me without present on my birthday " but you did not know that i actually already planned everything when to go and buy your present,what to buy and others hahaha i was just waiting for the day to come. that few days,I bet you did notice that i kept asking you when are you going to be in PJ since its the last week for the semester, everyone prefer to stay at their hometown and study for their finals. I thought of going to your house to deliver to you if you really not planning to come down but you did come down and its only that day for that dance practice. I personally prefer to give birthday present before the actually birthday or even better on the exact day, never been in my mind to give a belated present, i felt weird doing so. I gave you the present and you looked happy, which the only thing i wanted to see, your happy face and that smile. You wanted to open the present in front of me which you said that you did to everyone but i'm glad that you did not do so in front of me hahaha i prefer the host open it while i'm not around.

so here's your present

i'm glad that you like it very much =) the day you helped me to dyed my hair, i asked you which color do you like and you answered as long its colorful. you made my head spin honestly but day after day i noticed that you actually got into purple a lot so conclude buying things which is purple. Knowing a bit of you, your style so i know what taste do you like and getting a watch its something which you hope to have isn't it? hahaha watch, i do hope that it will help you in future and you wouldn't get lost in time XD actually i thought of bringing you to Putrajaya to watch fireworks for your birthday which is the one that shared in facebook but too bad finals is around the corner and i have much more to cover, perhaps next year. Anyway the promise that i promised to you, i wouldn't forget, which is our next photo shooting venue will be in Putrajaya and its night view. i can't wait to take the colorful bridge which i wanted and you're going to be the model of that day hahaha

alright this is what i wrote in the letter which was contained in her present,

"祝你青春美丽，愿你梦想成真，生日快乐，XX。虽然有时你对我有点冷淡，但你有时也有让我感觉温暖，谢谢你=)你别emo了，不然你那笑容我再也看不见了。记得你并不是一个人，有什么事，请跟我说，像我平时都说的，你可以找我，我一定会在。好了，你别多想，考试加油，我在pc等你 也许你讨厌的朋友， XX"

haha =) smile can be fake...but that smile of yours which i saw, it's the one kind which makes you who really you are. stay happy as always K. life its complicated, there's a lot of ups and downs but tell yourself that you have infinite of reasons for you to live happily. all the best and good luck in your finals ya

HPB

Wind Flew

it's been a while that i did not write anything here, i was too busy with my university assignments and flooded with midterms too. other than that, of course there is bunch of things i would like to write it here but somehow i feel lazy to write. Like i said before, bunch of things, which means a lot, there's too much for me to write, its impossible for me to write everything. anyway, today feel like coming here and type some stuffs which happened days ago.

I had a great time with K on Tuesday and i hope she was too. Something scared her the day before so i decided to bring her out and she wanted to see graffiti. She was so interested and so looking forward to see those arts. I knew a place which have a whole row of it thus bring her there and do photo shootings at the same time to improve and gain back my photo shooting skills. I like graffiti too but too bad at that time, my friends they do not really like them so each time we pass by there, they will just continue to walk. I wanted to stay there and see each of it but since i'm the only one that like it so they would not wait for me. Normally, i only had a glance to see the graffiti. So that day i brought her there, she was so happy. in addition surprisingly, on that day, we saw a huge around 3-4 feet monitor lizard or comodo dragon and it was just few feets away from us. She was freaked out and i was in front of her protecting her. I could say actually i'm very calm when i saw that but seeing her reaction so in case anything happen just look after her. I promised her to take care and protect her that day so promised as promise and impossible that i will let anything happen to her hahaha anyway i really enjoy that day, never thought that i can actually have the chance to see the graffiti for that long and close moreover unexpectedly was with K. Besides enjoying the graffiti, i brought my DSLR along; took a lot of photos and memories too. Quite a long time already i never appear in a frame, she asked me to take along and i entrusted her my 2nd wife to her, taught her how to use. I'm impressed and admitted to say this, she can be a good photographer. She has sharp eyes and imagination to take nice photos but there's much more to learn, she will learn them when she enter degree =) I can say after that "day", i never felt so happy and you never expect that you can actually give me so much joy aren't you K? hahaha =)

everyone has their on personality, there's a saying goes " personality can be changed if you wanted to ". Yes, this sentence is correct but i have another one on my own which is "personality can changed but characteristic of the person wouldn't". My personality is based on who you are to me, i'm real all the time (ok, i admit there are times i will be fake) but beware each of everyone of us has their own temper. There's limitation for everything, i love to help but never take it as granted or else you will find out that you actually useless or you did not learn anything from it. I will still help but who is the one that will gain the wisdom, isn't it me? i wanted my friends to learn as well, there are times that i might look very bossy and "smart" but i'm actually trying to teach you guys. i want you guys to learn and have the same knowledge as i have. I'm a patience person if the person can hit that point of my temper it simply means you are just too way much a head. I never like people to take me and compare to themselves. Its a stupid thing to do, why do you take people and compare to yourself? isn't that increase you stress and you will feel bad of yourself? Thus, please don't take anyone to compare yourself. God created us, each one of us have their own ability and own story to walk. If you really want to compare, compare with your pass, that's the best way for you to improve yourself.

everyone have their own story to walk, you cannot stop in the middle of it; its like you are growing from primary to secondary and now adult. in other words, time pass means passed, there is no return; appreciate the time you have now and stop worrying about future. future is not something which you can worry or think of because there is none that know what will happen next. Therefore, instead of waiting, move on first, you will see things differently without your expectation.

HPB