result

My foundation result came out, even though it's not what i expected but it hits the minimum requirement for my degree course. I'm happy but sad at the same time because i cannot afford to see my friends to be sad. It's just part of me, my characteristic. I wish i can do something to make them happy, i try to cheer them up and comfort them that they will do even better next time. i believe they are able too.

So my foundation life ended. Now comes to my next stage of my life, a degree life. I'm looking forward it but i have to do my course transfer. I'm going to change from mechatronic engineering to physiotherapy. After my foundation, i notice that i'm not very good with numbers so i have chosen medical course for my future. It will be tough i know but i believe i can do it.

Now, about her, the one that i worried the most. She checked her result and she got what she expected in the negative way. She failed in the subject she expected to fail. I cheer her up and comfort her through chat box. It's stupid, how to cheer a person in a chat box and i did my best, really i do. Honestly, if i'm besides her, i will really hug her, she will feel weird, pain and cry at first but i believe she will feel better. At least maybe she will know that she's not alone, there's someone for her when she cries. A shoulder to lead on. I really hope that but it wouldn't happen. i"m day dreaming....ok stop it, stop dreaming, back to the real thing. If fail, as long you didn't give up, you will do better the next time. That's what i'm believing in because i went through it before.

After comforting her, i let her be herself for a while and drop down a message" i will be here,when you're ok, talk to me =) " She cried i think, thought so. thus i wait for her, looking at the right bottom of my laptop screen, sitting in front of my laptop and waiting for her reply. It's so funny and crazy but i just did it. Quite a gab of time, she replied and i'm glad but still i feel that there's something missing. I worry for her, why? i need to make clear of one thing, am i chasing her? great question which i cant answer

~HPB