It's just one week of not having any dance practice, i actually feel so bored at home.I did some body building and some dance moves practices in this period. I only allow to do that when my parents are not around since they do not really like me dancing because they afraid that i will hurt myself, i break dance by the way. Honestly, i think it was not because i'm bored at home but more like missing a person. I cannot believe that i actually miss her. Since when i put her in my life?
Isn't really there's a reaction between us? I have no idea but i'm sure of one thing, i like you. People kept saying that love have to be match only they are suitable to be together but for me i personality think it in another way. If it matches, everything between the couple, they have nothing to say anymore because they share everything which both of them already know. Maybe they can share for quite a while but there's a certain limit too right? My own thinking is almost something like what i said above but just some parts of it. The reason is the couple able to share their own interest to the other partner so that they have more things to talk too and able to understand each other better. Instead of sharing the same thing, end up it will get bored. That's how i think off or maybe i'm wrong?
I will express my feelings towards you by dancing and hope that you will get to understand how i feel. Alex and Jia Shin, two friends which i know able to express their feelings to each other by dancing and got together. I really jealous of them how they love each other because i did not have that when i got into a relationship. Why do i feel pain from my chest at this time, why do i feel upset for? Because i got into a cold relationship which only one-sided love? Doubts for me because something so called 'one-sided love' happened to me twice. The first one it took me one year to recover and now the second one which i never expected i fall into it again. I suffered like a mad man, tears dried up, blood bleed, body bruise. The pain was like a dagger stabs into my heart torturing me, twisting here and there.
I remember how i over the first one, i dance and that's why i'm active again in dancing. And you appear in my life, at first, i do not have any feelings towards you but now it's different. I actually worry for you, after knowing your history, you're life, some part of it, it's exactly the same like me. I understand how you feel, i really do. I went through under depression before, it's a hard time for me to stand up again and enter this wicked world i should say. My parents were so worried of me, looking at me getting thinner and thinner. 36 kg when i was 13 years old, can you imagine that? I wish you morning and night each day to let you know there's actually someone care for you
I admit that i still feel pain from what my ex-girl friend did to me but i feel better each time i look at you. When we dance together, i can totally felt no pain at all. So do you know how really important are you to me right now? I will try to understand you more and i hope that you will try to understand me too. Now, i just let things go by its own..... there's once i was weak even now but there's something actually make me strong and it is you
~HPB
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