So my degree life is going to start tomorrow and i'm still thinking whether did i made the right choice. I have my pure science foundation cert and chosen the course which does not related to science, a art social science course, communication broadcast-ing.
How it will be? i wander about my degree life, totally different life from my science. No theories but just logic. It will be interesting since a science base student change to a art course. I'm so excited for tomorrow's life but what gave me a shock is my timetable. my class starts from 8am and it ends at 6pm, how great was it. It will be a tiring degree life. However i will do my best.
Today, i went to my uni to get my course timetable and after that my friends and i decided to go to somewhere to play. I promised to bring one of them to a place if she failed. I did not break my promise so i bring her and others to somewhere to enjoy themselves. At first, things does not go smoothly but end up we able to reach our destination. It's kinda weird to eat ice-cream in a cold place but it's fun too. Cold to freeze. Most importantly, they enjoy. I understand how they feel and all i can do is to motivate them and make them happy if i'm able too. They have been with me when i'm downed. A good way to repay them perhaps?
It was so tiring so i did not go my dance practice. when i thought of that, actually i was thinking of her before thinking of the practice we're going to have tonight. Thinking of her wounds so i decided to call her and talk to her. I ask her not to force herself and ask how was her wound. Part of the reason why i did not go for the dance practice is because i'm lazy, which is true and another reason is because i want her to rest. I do not wish to see her wound get serious, thought she went for the practice but luckily they were practicing easy dance step so she will be alright i think then i hung up.
after calling her, i have another call from my second heart. She does not feel well,i can hear it from the phone. Hopefully she will recover as soon as possible, have a long talk with her. In the conversation, i can hear there's something she wants to tell me but she just forgets what it is. A long story perhaps? It's alright, it not something which is rush though, take your time and think. I will always be your ear so you can tell me anything you want and no worries, it will be kept by me and only me. After an hour if i'm not mistaken, there's a call. It's impossible for me to talk to two phones. Thus, i ask my second heart to sleep early. We can talk to each other anytime so i hung up the phone, i'm sorry for that. after that i talk to another phone of mine.
she called me actually, i was surprise to see that, took the call and it's her friend talking to me and she passed the phone to my dance partner(her). Have a long talk with her and her credit left Rm2+ so i ask her to hang up, let me call her. Her friends were helping her to apply medicine on her wound, she was screaming pain in the phone and i was asking her friend to do it harder. She really needs to understand me more, there are so many things that i did not reveal. Only those that know me so well, they understand what kind of person am i. We talk till 12:30am and she asked me to go and sleep since i have class at 8am and i have to wake up at 6am. So i wish her before i hang up.
now comes to a great question, am i chasing her? some of my friends said that i'm not really chasing her and some said yes. Even i myself cannot find the answer to it. However there's one thing i can assure that i feel comfortable when i'm with her. What does this really mean? i do not know, this feeling is different from what i had before. I have this feeling when we dance, the feeling which i do not experiences before. Does she feel the same too? I better stop thinking so much or else i'm the one that get hurt again. So , just let things be in their way....
~HBP
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