Saturday, we were rushing to Penang Island which is quite a distance from my house, 300km+ if i'm not mistaken. So we took off at 7am and we reached Ipoh around 9am. I was sleeping in the car the whole time until my dad stopped his car and i looked up, there goes a coffee shop. Finally, we could have some breakfast, i was hungry and tired because i did not sleep early the day before, the blame goes on me then. Anyway, i had slept for 2 hours in the car so i was energized and head for breakfast.
here comes the interesting part of that day, somehow my mum asked me how is the two sisters of mine. I answered her that they are fine and they will be continuing with their studies in degree. Suddenly, my mum brought up a conversation which is weird to me. She said how was V then? i told her that she will continue with her studies about English. It is something like advance English so i think she will be a teacher or lecturer one day. Then my mum said V is a good girl, why don't i think about it. hahaha seriously, i never thought that my mum will say that but honestly i know and i knew that we cannot be together because i'm not good enough for her or perhaps i rather appreciate her as my sister instead of girl friend. I just kept on telling my mum that it was impossible and my family was there so you can get the feeling i went through that day.
there's reason for everything and i believe we have to search it our own and that is exactly what i do in my life, keep on searching and waiting.
let's have a throw back then about my relation between V
I knew V during my foundation through a bunch of crazy foundation friends of mine. They were studying Biology science and i was studying pure science so there were few subjects i will be having the same class as them. Time goes by, they actually formed a family and it is a big one,Ugang and so i was added to their family too since i'm quite close to them and helped them a lot in some way. One day a brother of that family asked me that whether do i interested in any of the sisters in the family, i did answer him but that time i answered it because i like them, nothing much. It is normal for a guy to like girls or else boy likes boy, isn't that weird?
before that there was something happened and V started to avoid talking to me, perhaps she started to notice that i like her or maybe because of something else. it was a long story so i will only state the main stories. When it came to her birthday, she cried and i actually already knew that what happened to her before,her history through a sister in that family. Furthermore because of that, i told myself that V do not have to be my girl friend, why not a sister or a close friend perhaps. on her birthday, i actually folded and colored 100 of pink roses and store them in a transparent teddy bear, after knowing her history i folded one more rose to change the whole meaning of the present. Yes i admit that i love V very much in that period but there are things which not meant to be yours, it will not be yours forever but you can hold it and let it go; i even stated above that i'm not her dream man, she will only interested to guys which are super handsome and definitely the person will not be me haha i believe she can get a better person then me and of course her ex too. i always ask her to stay strong even the other brothers and sisters too.
i dare to type this out because i believe she trusted me to be a good brother to her and i will not break that promise. V can be my sister forever and close friend. i cannot believe my mum actually want me to chase you haha however it would not happen. right now too bad that she is far away from me, the only way to contact each other is through social network messenger. I miss you sister, i believe we can see each other one day. those memories we had, it will be in my heart forever. thanks for everything, you know you are the best. continue to stay strong and study hard for your degree, all the best and good luck.
HPB
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