never knew this will happen

my life was full of enjoyment and i'm single, life never been better but after i met you, things just go bad, my health and others. at first i thought i have already find the one that able to take care and love me but i'm wrong..i never thought that this day will happened, we broke up. it struck-ed me very hard, the scar was so deep. i manage to survive thanks to my brothers and sisters(uni-friends)for being there for me..i might not be able to be normal without them at this period

i chased you for 5 months, in relationship with you for 3 months and something happened, you tortured me for 3 weeks(being cold to me, treat me coldly)i cannot take it anymore , it only makes me feel worst and more painful so i open my mouth to call it off. I broke my own policy to break up with you. after two days the day we officially break up, you apologized. Don't you think that it was too late for that~ the scar is already there and it's a deep one. At first it's not that deep but because of that 3 weeks tortured, you had made it even worst and deeper.

i did told you that i will not open my mouth to break up a girl but you made me do so, you can imagine how much you really hurt me. i give up my fame and my pride, break my own policy and live in the dark. you approved me at first because you trust me that i will be a good boy friend and more break up, the reason you gave me is we are not match. i was wandering, if we are not match why at first you approved me. you have no idea, how much i did for you, i gave up my everything.

i did notice that you treat me cold and i was trying to make our relationship warm again. i did everything but you never try to do so at the same time. you never care it's like one-sided love. you broke my heart into pieces which cant glue back and now i'm living in pain...how am i going to let you go for what you have done to me, my first kiss just gone like that.

this is going to be very painful i know myself, i wish you will find a better boy friend then. for everything i did, i do hope that the one you find will be better than me..

i cried, my heart felt thorns around it, i bleed, my flesh with wounds. all the time i thought that love is trust or loyalty but after this, i found out that true love is neither what i mentioned but it was UNDERSTANDING
i will live on, i believe i deserve a better girl, a girl which will really understands me and love me.

~bbpianist