True enough that i have been not writing anything in this blog not because i'm busy nor lazy. Its more like i have so many things to write but i don't know what to write because things just not easy to throw them out anymore. Back to what i used to be, the one who don't really rely on blog and keep everything inside my little tiny brain. If it suffers then let it be, its not that i can't handle them anyway;rather suffer alone, sacrifice is needed to achieve happiness for others. perhaps i'm mad but don't you think seeing those smile on your friends' face feels good though you have to suffer to have that, i think its worth doing so... Life, its never easy; even you try to create one, there's always something which will screw the whole plan, situation, environment and surrounding. So that's my life, i never expect my friends to understand me simply because my life is complicated, easy things just do not exist in front of me.
though life is complicated but it helps me to show who and what is important in my life. Recently, i have been with my dance buddies. They are funny and cute, a bunch of good friends that can play with. We had our dance performance few days ago for our university exchange program between Japanese. Talking about the performance, i felt that i did not do well on that day. K-pop, i started dance k-pop while i was in secondary school and stopped after 1-2 months after knowing that its not really my style. I did my best but it still sucks after watching the video that my DSLR took which i placed in the hall. Nevertheless we pulled it off and now proceeding to another up coming performance for Halloween.
As i said, i have been with my dance buddies these few weeks so we ended up created a 'family' and i was posted as grandpa which i think is a good post for me since i'm the eldest among all of them. Though we are from different courses, we maintain our relationship through Facebook chat and google+ hangouts. Isn't that awesome to see them that way, just that i don't know why am i getting further away from them hahaha i think too much? Maybe because of maturity, they can play things which are childish and don't even care of their fame. When that happens, i just stand beside looking at them and smile, which maybe a good 'reaction'. i wish to join them, the body is willing but the mind is suppressing it. Perhaps i can't go crazy in front of them because they doesn't know anything about me. Anyway i just try my best to join them if i'm able to or exceptional case which can makes me high on that day.
always think positive which always makes me think negative at the same time. Have been too good thinking around and cycle it, its like never ending. "Secrets are meant to be reveal" which i used to say but "Between secrets there are secrets which you rather not reveal than revealing it" is the one that's circling in my mind now. Words are just words;two type of words, tangible or intangible and two kinds of secrets, lie or truth. lost or found, who knows..
HPB
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